Will my future destroy?

In my age now,
is actually started college life and maybe started the second semester.
But know what am i doing now?
I am working, wasting time and still worry about my study.
My SPM result are in the quite-good situation for me.

I get my SPM result this March,
and so unlucky i get choose to National Service Batch 2, my camp are located in Sarawak.
Because worried that will get black listed by the government so no choice and i went it.
The life there are quite hard for me to survive but in the end i come back safely.

Because of my stupid and immature brain and thinking.
So after i come back on June, i still in the situation of dont know what should i study.
Dont wanna waste time and try to earn some money myself, so i started a job.
When my job is running, my brain also started thinking what should i study.
But really no idea.

And now i make a decision, i should choose account course.
But i can only go for tarc.
And tarc college next intake will be in next year May i think.
So,
what i do is keep wait wait and wait,
keep waste time waste time and waste time.
I am not really happy with it.
Feel my future have been destroy by myself.

I am so sorry to my family, my parents especially my dad.
I know he really worry about my future.
He dont wish that i do the same thing as my brother did.
I feel like wanna cry every time i think about my dad who worry about my future.
I promise here, i am going to study hard and earn more money for my parents.

Hwaitng Im Mi Yeong =D