change

i cut my hair....
look ugly....but usual i am ugly too.
i feel that i look like chaba now...==lll

i want to change myself now.
now i try to change myself,
not to be so lan c, not to be so cool, not to be so rude.
people say that i am lan c, but i cant feel it.
but i know i very cool sometime.
i cant smile with everyone sincerely included my friends.
no why,
is very normal to me.
but not all the friends cant accept, just some.
i am trying to nice to everyone.
but is that work....?
no comment....=X

opps!
i still mention them.
but nobody want to choi me.
because they will say me 【say yes and mean no】
i admit, but i am not worst like lilian and huey leng =]
without talking about them, i feel a bit boring.
maybe because talking about them already become the usual things to me.
okay,
just let it be.
and i still thinking that,
should i stop going the class on June?
my heart tell my no to stop.
but...haiz...confuse....

actually i dont want let miss chung know my this blog. =X
and so before this,
i change my URL....
but...
nvm lah....
is okay, i dont care lah actually.

lilian say i still interesting with him...
ermmm...
i think yes...
but...
who care?
nobody will care it. i know.
i try to control myself not to pay attention to him...
but i cant.
i cant accept he saw another girl... =X
but i know i have to accept...
i am really bull shit!!