SIGH

SIGH`!
damn it!!
hmmm...
i get chosen to the NS!!!!
NS!!!!! NS!!!!!
you know NS?
the worst thing in the world for ME!!!!
so shit!
i dont really want to go!
waste my time!
today at school ah guah help me to check...
"tahniah anda telah dipilih blak blak blak..."
what a tahniah...
is tahziah to me man!
a lot of my friend get chosen also.
jia xian,mel,suzanne,phei ching,des,jia yu,xiu ying,yi wen,and dont know who.
haizzz...
i cry in class after i know i have been chosen...
i think i have get ready if i get chosen...
but NO!
first point i cry is just because i think about my daddy and mammy...
and second...
i worry about i will become black!!
i dont want!!!
so hard to get white back you know?
what the...
i was so sad in the class...
lilian was so happy because she escape..
haizzz....
then i cry non-stop...
my classmate tell my maybe you can escape by many way...
she told me all the way to escape ==lll
after that, ah guah say with me,you got allergic right?
and i feel like suddenly so happy! and so thankful to ah guah!
i think hard to found my health and body problem.
i think about my heart problem,my legs problem,and allergic problem.
so happy suddenly!
because maybe one of the problem will make me escape!

some of them also worry about maybe will get choose to second batch.
dont know is that still have to choose or not.

now i start worry again.
because of my heartless sister.
mammy told sister maybe i can escape because of my allergic problem.
and you know what my sister reaction?
she just like,
i wont escape and the allergic problem just a small case...
i very worry now...
maybe what my sister say is right...my allergic problem is just a small case...
not serious like others people allergic...
haizz....

and this saturday i will go to Cameron Highland.
woo~
cold place!
but i feel like dont want to go...because that day is saturday!
i want go tuition!
but okay,
2 week i wont see him...
maybe this 2 week is the good time for me to forget him.
hope so!

lilian quit to tuition at Kasturi!
but lilian not wish to quit!
she must be very sad!
she cant see her lover lover anymore~
pity her!